I will pick up the pieces and learn again

07-02-2017. Here come the blog life again.
Been falling for times. And this time it hurts so freaking badly after a 4 years relationship end.

This is how I will unlove you.

I will try to remember everything;
the first time we met,
what you looked liked,
what clothes you wore,
who approached who --
how we became close.

I will think of the stupid inside jokes we made
and the silly smiles it brought to my face.

I will recall how we devoured immorality and left hearts broken
when we decided to run away and bask in uncertainty.

After the happy memories we built together,
the hugs, the kisses, the promises..
until you started to drift away.

I will think about all your good,
but at the same time,
how you eventually gave me the cold shoulder and cold words.

I will recall how once you looked at me
like I was the only girl in your world,
until your eyes were captured by another.

I will try to remember every little thing I loved about you;
your eyes, your humor,
around the clock texts and calls---
and now replace them with the memories of how everything turned sour.

I will start caring more about myself--
because all along you were my priority,
when clearly,
it should have been me.

I will pick up the pieces,
and learn to love myself again.

.....from then on,


I shall unlove you.

Only If

If Santa does exists in this world, there is only one thing I wish for: My phone back. It isn't the pain that losing the phone but the pain that losing all the contacts and history records. Everything is gone.

Jason Mraz - I Won't Give Up (Lyric Video)

It used to make so much sense.

Specially for you, heart.

Dear Heart, Below is specially indicate for you. So, please listen carefully though it hurts. "Listen: Those who have hurt you in the past cannot continue to hurt you now unless you hold on the pain through resentment. Your past is past. Nothing will change it. You are only hurting yourself with your bitterness. Learn from it, and then let it go."

Be tough

It's still bleed whenever I get near to it.
But it is okay...telling myself everything is ok.. I will be fine eventually...
One day...this wound gonna heals.

For myself

No matter what, world still goes round.
I will be better in time : )

No matter how hard it is,
I gonna wipe away all the tears,
and make things right.


P/S: It is not beyond my boundaries anymore.