I will pick up the pieces and learn again

07-02-2017. Here come the blog life again.
Been falling for times. And this time it hurts so freaking badly after a 4 years relationship end.

This is how I will unlove you.

I will try to remember everything;
the first time we met,
what you looked liked,
what clothes you wore,
who approached who --
how we became close.

I will think of the stupid inside jokes we made
and the silly smiles it brought to my face.

I will recall how we devoured immorality and left hearts broken
when we decided to run away and bask in uncertainty.

After the happy memories we built together,
the hugs, the kisses, the promises..
until you started to drift away.

I will think about all your good,
but at the same time,
how you eventually gave me the cold shoulder and cold words.

I will recall how once you looked at me
like I was the only girl in your world,
until your eyes were captured by another.

I will try to remember every little thing I loved about you;
your eyes, your humor,
around the clock texts and calls---
and now replace them with the memories of how everything turned sour.

I will start caring more about myself--
because all along you were my priority,
when clearly,
it should have been me.

I will pick up the pieces,
and learn to love myself again.

.....from then on,


I shall unlove you.