疤痕

它就像正在发炎的伤口
就因此我不敢触碰它
也不处理它，任由它。

只知道过了很长的时间
它会康复
留下丑陋的疤痕。

♥ Sunrise ♥

It is 5.15 am
I wish I could just be sitting besides the beach
or being in a east-top of mountain right now
Watching the bright sun rise up.

Mood of Friday

It's been a while, I had been looking through past and living in the present.
Is trying to walk out from the circle now..
Sick of crying, tired of trying..
Gonna keep those memories somewhere..lock them perhaps.


P/s: I hope someday you gonna stand infront of the stage and playing with your dream. And with all my wishes watching you behind.

Brain or heart?

I always tell my friends,
go with your heart whenever you have difficulty in making decision,
just go with your heart,
it will give you the best decision..

However, I realised..
this is not the first time anymore,
going with your heart while making decision hurts a lot..
somehow we just have to choose whether to make decision
with our heart or brain..
your brain always go against your heart..
telling you the total opposite things..

That's why we always struggle when we have to make a decision,
and we couldn't deny that the answer of the heart is always the one we wanted the most..
Sometimes, the situation just don't allow us do choose what we wanted..

Perhaps, those rational thinking is in our head !!
just sometimes we are escaping or ignore it..
I just have to be rational and just follow what my brain ask me to do..
Not the heart.

Dreams

It has been some time since the last post..
Busy busy busy is the only word crossed my mind..
Not a reason actually because I am really busy for bunch of assignments..
5 down another 5 more to go..=(
And honestly, I did quite a lot of outings too..
In other words, I am spending over recently..
It's the time to control myself from spending too much before fully bankrupt =)

Yet now I am finding..I am searching...
Something that I really need to work on..
Something that I really want to do in my life..
Something that I really obsessed with..
It is all about the future.
I am searching for my dreams.

I have this kind of strong feeling after a conversation with someone,
I just feel like I don't really know what life really meant to except the study,friendship,and relationship,..
Yeah I mean what do I really want to do in my future..
What is the directions that I really wished for in my life..
What kind of person that I really want to be to light my life up, to be proud of who am I and happy of course, the most important thing..
I shall start to think about it..
I am not sure whether they are being forgotten or I didn't think about them at all..

Now, I understand why there are some people rather to give up something else when they found their dreams..
It's so hard to find one..
Perhaps, there may be something to sacrifice in order to fight for their dreams..
It is mostly depends on how we judge or think, whether it is worth to do it or not to do it.

Now, I realize..
it is so important to discover the thing that I really really want to concentrate on..
Just because I still couldn't find one..it is not my fault of not forgetting the past.(someone told me this)
I wondering for some time..could this be true?
Maybe, she is right...
Maybe, he was right...

I am just too rely on the past til I forgot who am I.


P/s: Confused of what I am writing? I am confusing as well.