Dreams

It has been some time since the last post..
Busy busy busy is the only word crossed my mind..
Not a reason actually because I am really busy for bunch of assignments..
5 down another 5 more to go..=(
And honestly, I did quite a lot of outings too..
In other words, I am spending over recently..
It's the time to control myself from spending too much before fully bankrupt =)

Yet now I am finding..I am searching...
Something that I really need to work on..
Something that I really want to do in my life..
Something that I really obsessed with..
It is all about the future.
I am searching for my dreams.

I have this kind of strong feeling after a conversation with someone,
I just feel like I don't really know what life really meant to except the study,friendship,and relationship,..
Yeah I mean what do I really want to do in my future..
What is the directions that I really wished for in my life..
What kind of person that I really want to be to light my life up, to be proud of who am I and happy of course, the most important thing..
I shall start to think about it..
I am not sure whether they are being forgotten or I didn't think about them at all..

Now, I understand why there are some people rather to give up something else when they found their dreams..
It's so hard to find one..
Perhaps, there may be something to sacrifice in order to fight for their dreams..
It is mostly depends on how we judge or think, whether it is worth to do it or not to do it.

Now, I realize..
it is so important to discover the thing that I really really want to concentrate on..
Just because I still couldn't find one..it is not my fault of not forgetting the past.(someone told me this)
I wondering for some time..could this be true?
Maybe, she is right...
Maybe, he was right...

I am just too rely on the past til I forgot who am I.


P/s: Confused of what I am writing? I am confusing as well.