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I don't know how real it is.
I don't know how sincere it is.
I am in doubt of everything that is so not real.
Should I be waiting for those days?
Are those words really worth enough to be trusted?
These are all the question that came into my head.
I am doubt.
Inside
It is struggling..
The angel persuade me to take away all the fears
while the same time there is a devil seem to keep all my courage
After it all I am afraid of getting hurt after experienced once.
I am afraid of bearing the pain anymore.
and yes
I am so doubt right now.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Untitled
Have you ever missing someone until no way to stop the tears from dropping?
I did it, tonight, right now.
P/s: I wanted to see you so much.
I did it, tonight, right now.
P/s: I wanted to see you so much.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Wishes for You
Sickness is so unpredicted.
It can happen without any signs.
I strongly feel something when this happened to the people around me..
Is this a feeling of fearless?
I don't know.I couldn't really describe it through words.
One of my friends is suffered from the sickness right now..
I wouldn't know until I heard it from one of my friends
It even hurts after being told that he couldn't work for a long time and need to depend on the medication...
The medicine cause side effects of vomiting, headache...
I just couldn't imagine how hard he is doing right now..
It's sad knowing that I couldn't do a thing to help him
All I can do is sending him the warmest wishes..
Hopefully he could really go through the tough time...
We will always be here to support you..pray for you
God gonna bless you..
Do Get well soon..
It can happen without any signs.
I strongly feel something when this happened to the people around me..
Is this a feeling of fearless?
I don't know.I couldn't really describe it through words.
One of my friends is suffered from the sickness right now..
I wouldn't know until I heard it from one of my friends
It even hurts after being told that he couldn't work for a long time and need to depend on the medication...
The medicine cause side effects of vomiting, headache...
I just couldn't imagine how hard he is doing right now..
It's sad knowing that I couldn't do a thing to help him
All I can do is sending him the warmest wishes..
Hopefully he could really go through the tough time...
We will always be here to support you..pray for you
God gonna bless you..
Do Get well soon..
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Thursday, September 9, 2010
值得一看再看
在某某网址看到了这篇文章， 值得一看再看。
1.当你过了二十岁的生日以后，请记得学会化妆。这里所谓的化妆并不是要你化的多么浓妆艳抹。是要给自己与他人一个好的精神状态。二十岁以前不化妆叫清纯，可爱。二十岁以后化妆是对别人的尊重，二十二岁以后化妆是对自己的尊重。我想，如果一个连自己面部都打理不好的女人，如何能让别人对自己产生好感呢？
2.任何情况下，请让自己的情绪尽量处于平和的状态。哪怕一件事情让你很抓狂，但你需要平静的分析，做出最好的应对措施。没有任何人能够容忍一个暴戾的，不能控制自己脾气女人。
3.不要在人多或者有陌生人的地方说脏话。一个女人，出口成脏，并不会显得豪放，只会让别人觉得你没有教养。如果出口成脏，你的朋友与男友是羞于带你出门的。
4.不要像个泼妇一样在大街上与人争吵。试问，如果你在街上看到一个衣着光鲜，明眸皓齿的女子与别人在大街上指着别人的鼻子与人争吵，你会是什么感觉？
5. 学会尊重。有的女性看到酒店的服务员，陪酒的小姐，出卖肉体的女孩会嘲笑并厌恶别人，觉得自己比她们高人一等。但是，请你想想，无论她们出卖任何东西，她们都是凭自己的努力去赚钱。可能她们出卖青春，出卖身体，但有一点你要相信，她们的钱是通过自己挣来的。她们没有偷，没有抢。
6.学会宽容。原谅那些伤害过你的人，是他们的伤害让你成长成熟。仇恨是一把双刃剑，刺伤别人，也会伤到自己。真正的报复是漠视和原谅伤害你的人，你的漠视与原谅会让他们觉得自己很渺小。
7.相信地久天长的爱情是存在的。或许你经历了男友的背叛，但请你相信，背叛你的人曾经也真诚的爱过，但他爱的那个人可能不是你。所以，请始终对爱情抱着积极的态度，这样容易得到幸福。
8.不要轻易抽男人耳光。除非他真的是卑鄙无耻下流。男人最在乎的是面子，你可以打的他满地找牙，但不要轻易打他的脸。打他的脸跟说他性功能不行有一样的效果。
9.我认为，一个女人一生最宝贵的财富不是拥有多大的权力，多高的地位，多少的金钱，而是在时间与经历的历练下，磨炼出良好的修养与气度。
10.学会做饭。我想这一点很多女孩会不屑，现在还要做饭吗？去外面多方便。但请你相信我，没有一个男人愿意找一个连面条都不会煮的女孩。即使偶尔犒赏自己，也应该跟妈妈学几道家常菜。
11.记得妈妈与爸爸的生日，还有自己的。在这三个日子里，请你回家陪伴他们，给他们做一餐饭，陪他们聊聊天。因为是他们把你带到这个世界上。尤其是你的生日，那是妈妈的受难日。
12.坚持有一份自己的工作。无论你的家庭与男友，老公多富有，但还是要工作。首先，你不会与这个社会发展脱轨，其次也会有一个自己的朋友圈，更重要的是，当你与提供你物质生活的人分开后，你还能够养活自己。
13.要有一个信念。这点很重要，信念是伴随一生的，有了一个信念，你便有了一个生活的目标。
14.对感情要认真，对爱情要忠贞。我们难免会被别人追求，当别人追求你，而你并不想与之交往的时候，请你明确的告诉他。不要玩暧昧，暧昧会伤害一颗有爱的心。对待爱情，要忠贞，相爱的时日里，请忠于对方，不爱的时候要果断的提出来，这样会省去很多不必要的纠缠与伤害。
15. 忍让并尊敬你丈夫的母亲。如果你结婚了，与婆婆的关系处理的不好，请你尽量的忍让。并且不要对爱人数落他母亲的不对。你要知道，是你的婆婆把你的爱人带到这个世界上，是这个女人耗尽了青春与心力抚养教育了你的爱人。你一纸婚书就让这个男人跟随了你，请你想想那个生他养他的女人的感受。
16.学会保护自己。在自己随身携带的包里放一只安全套。这个社会每天都有女性受到性侵害，如果你不幸遇到了这样的事，又没有办法求救，那么，安全套会让罪犯对你的伤害减少，至少不会意外怀孕或者得传染病。
17.尽量少喝酒，少抽烟。现在女人喝酒抽烟不是什么大事，但对自己的身体健康不好，尤其是对以后的宝宝不好。如果你准备要宝宝，请提前一年戒烟戒酒。
18.控制眼泪。女人是水做的，所以眼泪就成了女人的专利。但我想说，不要让你的眼泪泛滥，尤其是在工作上，会让上司与同事认为你太脆弱，不能委以重任。其次，太多的眼泪招人烦。记住，眼泪解决不了任何问题。
19.每天让自己有一段时间阅读。无论是报纸，杂志，新闻，小说，请每天至少有半个小时去做。这样可以提升自己的学识。没有人喜欢一个金玉其外，败絮其中，胸无点墨的女人。
20.做个聪明的女人。聪明不是说让你算计谁，而是能够看清别人的阴谋，而你可以不动声色的化解危机。包括爱人的出轨，同事的算计。
21.学会微笑。我们会有很多烦心的事情缠绕，但，请在出门后保持优雅的微笑，你的微笑会让更多的人快乐，也会淡化你的烦恼。更重要的是，隐藏了自己的弱点，让对你心有不轨的人没有偷袭你的机会。
22.信守承诺。当你答应别人一件事情后，请尽自己的能力做好。如果你没有能力做到，那就不要轻易许诺，否则，别人会越来越不信任你。
23.坚持自己的原则。当别人触到你忍耐的底线的时候，请你大声的说"不"。一个有原则的女人不会让别人觉得不近人情，反而会让别人佩服。
24.克制自己的欲望。包括寂寞时身体的欲望。人的欲望是可怕的，你不加以克制会让自己陷的更深。尤其是情欲，放纵自己的情欲会让别人觉得你滥情并且会骂你是烂货。
25.学会珍惜和感恩。一个懂得珍惜的女人必定是个快乐的人，珍惜每一份情谊，爱情，友情，亲情，这样，内心会是温暖的。懂得感恩的女人是善良的，能够记住对自己有恩，帮助自己的人，会用更多的爱去爱和保护身边的人。
26.学会放手。当你爱的人不爱你了，请放手，并祝他幸福。不要寻死觅活的纠缠，这样只会加深他对你的绝情。更丢失了一个女人的自尊。优雅的离去，会让他在多年以后怀念你们曾经的美好时光。
27.保持自我。女人一但恋爱，就把自己丢失了，为了他改变自己。孰不知，他爱的就是初遇你的样子。一些不好的习惯可以改，但不能盲目的把以前的自己全盘否定。
28.认识自己的错误，然后诚恳道歉。无论是与朋友，家人，爱人相处，如果你错了，请道歉。不要让别人牵就你，一句对不起会让别人觉得你更懂事。
29.选择一个爱好。这个爱好必须是健康的，它可以在你闲暇时，无聊时，郁闷时为你排解情绪，也会让别人觉得你有一个特殊的才艺。
30. 自尊，自爱，自强。老调重谈，也是最最重要的。做到这三点，说实话，很难。因为女人可能因为感情而将这三点抛下，或者将其中的一些抛下。但这三点，对于一个女人来说，是社会与他人对自己肯定的决定性筹码。没有这三点，女人将是随波的浮萍，男人的玩物，别人嘲笑的对象。所以，请所有女孩，女子，女人牢记，一定要自尊，自爱，自强。
一直让自己做一个尽量不让别人讨厌的人。我们不可能让所有人都喜欢我们，但我们尽量不让别人讨厌。能做到不让别人讨厌，已经是一件很不容易的事了。所以，所有的女孩，女子，女人，让我们一起加油吧。
P/s: It is so true. =)
1.当你过了二十岁的生日以后，请记得学会化妆。这里所谓的化妆并不是要你化的多么浓妆艳抹。是要给自己与他人一个好的精神状态。二十岁以前不化妆叫清纯，可爱。二十岁以后化妆是对别人的尊重，二十二岁以后化妆是对自己的尊重。我想，如果一个连自己面部都打理不好的女人，如何能让别人对自己产生好感呢？
2.任何情况下，请让自己的情绪尽量处于平和的状态。哪怕一件事情让你很抓狂，但你需要平静的分析，做出最好的应对措施。没有任何人能够容忍一个暴戾的，不能控制自己脾气女人。
3.不要在人多或者有陌生人的地方说脏话。一个女人，出口成脏，并不会显得豪放，只会让别人觉得你没有教养。如果出口成脏，你的朋友与男友是羞于带你出门的。
4.不要像个泼妇一样在大街上与人争吵。试问，如果你在街上看到一个衣着光鲜，明眸皓齿的女子与别人在大街上指着别人的鼻子与人争吵，你会是什么感觉？
5. 学会尊重。有的女性看到酒店的服务员，陪酒的小姐，出卖肉体的女孩会嘲笑并厌恶别人，觉得自己比她们高人一等。但是，请你想想，无论她们出卖任何东西，她们都是凭自己的努力去赚钱。可能她们出卖青春，出卖身体，但有一点你要相信，她们的钱是通过自己挣来的。她们没有偷，没有抢。
6.学会宽容。原谅那些伤害过你的人，是他们的伤害让你成长成熟。仇恨是一把双刃剑，刺伤别人，也会伤到自己。真正的报复是漠视和原谅伤害你的人，你的漠视与原谅会让他们觉得自己很渺小。
7.相信地久天长的爱情是存在的。或许你经历了男友的背叛，但请你相信，背叛你的人曾经也真诚的爱过，但他爱的那个人可能不是你。所以，请始终对爱情抱着积极的态度，这样容易得到幸福。
8.不要轻易抽男人耳光。除非他真的是卑鄙无耻下流。男人最在乎的是面子，你可以打的他满地找牙，但不要轻易打他的脸。打他的脸跟说他性功能不行有一样的效果。
9.我认为，一个女人一生最宝贵的财富不是拥有多大的权力，多高的地位，多少的金钱，而是在时间与经历的历练下，磨炼出良好的修养与气度。
10.学会做饭。我想这一点很多女孩会不屑，现在还要做饭吗？去外面多方便。但请你相信我，没有一个男人愿意找一个连面条都不会煮的女孩。即使偶尔犒赏自己，也应该跟妈妈学几道家常菜。
11.记得妈妈与爸爸的生日，还有自己的。在这三个日子里，请你回家陪伴他们，给他们做一餐饭，陪他们聊聊天。因为是他们把你带到这个世界上。尤其是你的生日，那是妈妈的受难日。
12.坚持有一份自己的工作。无论你的家庭与男友，老公多富有，但还是要工作。首先，你不会与这个社会发展脱轨，其次也会有一个自己的朋友圈，更重要的是，当你与提供你物质生活的人分开后，你还能够养活自己。
13.要有一个信念。这点很重要，信念是伴随一生的，有了一个信念，你便有了一个生活的目标。
14.对感情要认真，对爱情要忠贞。我们难免会被别人追求，当别人追求你，而你并不想与之交往的时候，请你明确的告诉他。不要玩暧昧，暧昧会伤害一颗有爱的心。对待爱情，要忠贞，相爱的时日里，请忠于对方，不爱的时候要果断的提出来，这样会省去很多不必要的纠缠与伤害。
15. 忍让并尊敬你丈夫的母亲。如果你结婚了，与婆婆的关系处理的不好，请你尽量的忍让。并且不要对爱人数落他母亲的不对。你要知道，是你的婆婆把你的爱人带到这个世界上，是这个女人耗尽了青春与心力抚养教育了你的爱人。你一纸婚书就让这个男人跟随了你，请你想想那个生他养他的女人的感受。
16.学会保护自己。在自己随身携带的包里放一只安全套。这个社会每天都有女性受到性侵害，如果你不幸遇到了这样的事，又没有办法求救，那么，安全套会让罪犯对你的伤害减少，至少不会意外怀孕或者得传染病。
17.尽量少喝酒，少抽烟。现在女人喝酒抽烟不是什么大事，但对自己的身体健康不好，尤其是对以后的宝宝不好。如果你准备要宝宝，请提前一年戒烟戒酒。
18.控制眼泪。女人是水做的，所以眼泪就成了女人的专利。但我想说，不要让你的眼泪泛滥，尤其是在工作上，会让上司与同事认为你太脆弱，不能委以重任。其次，太多的眼泪招人烦。记住，眼泪解决不了任何问题。
19.每天让自己有一段时间阅读。无论是报纸，杂志，新闻，小说，请每天至少有半个小时去做。这样可以提升自己的学识。没有人喜欢一个金玉其外，败絮其中，胸无点墨的女人。
20.做个聪明的女人。聪明不是说让你算计谁，而是能够看清别人的阴谋，而你可以不动声色的化解危机。包括爱人的出轨，同事的算计。
21.学会微笑。我们会有很多烦心的事情缠绕，但，请在出门后保持优雅的微笑，你的微笑会让更多的人快乐，也会淡化你的烦恼。更重要的是，隐藏了自己的弱点，让对你心有不轨的人没有偷袭你的机会。
22.信守承诺。当你答应别人一件事情后，请尽自己的能力做好。如果你没有能力做到，那就不要轻易许诺，否则，别人会越来越不信任你。
23.坚持自己的原则。当别人触到你忍耐的底线的时候，请你大声的说"不"。一个有原则的女人不会让别人觉得不近人情，反而会让别人佩服。
24.克制自己的欲望。包括寂寞时身体的欲望。人的欲望是可怕的，你不加以克制会让自己陷的更深。尤其是情欲，放纵自己的情欲会让别人觉得你滥情并且会骂你是烂货。
25.学会珍惜和感恩。一个懂得珍惜的女人必定是个快乐的人，珍惜每一份情谊，爱情，友情，亲情，这样，内心会是温暖的。懂得感恩的女人是善良的，能够记住对自己有恩，帮助自己的人，会用更多的爱去爱和保护身边的人。
26.学会放手。当你爱的人不爱你了，请放手，并祝他幸福。不要寻死觅活的纠缠，这样只会加深他对你的绝情。更丢失了一个女人的自尊。优雅的离去，会让他在多年以后怀念你们曾经的美好时光。
27.保持自我。女人一但恋爱，就把自己丢失了，为了他改变自己。孰不知，他爱的就是初遇你的样子。一些不好的习惯可以改，但不能盲目的把以前的自己全盘否定。
28.认识自己的错误，然后诚恳道歉。无论是与朋友，家人，爱人相处，如果你错了，请道歉。不要让别人牵就你，一句对不起会让别人觉得你更懂事。
29.选择一个爱好。这个爱好必须是健康的，它可以在你闲暇时，无聊时，郁闷时为你排解情绪，也会让别人觉得你有一个特殊的才艺。
30. 自尊，自爱，自强。老调重谈，也是最最重要的。做到这三点，说实话，很难。因为女人可能因为感情而将这三点抛下，或者将其中的一些抛下。但这三点，对于一个女人来说，是社会与他人对自己肯定的决定性筹码。没有这三点，女人将是随波的浮萍，男人的玩物，别人嘲笑的对象。所以，请所有女孩，女子，女人牢记，一定要自尊，自爱，自强。
一直让自己做一个尽量不让别人讨厌的人。我们不可能让所有人都喜欢我们，但我们尽量不让别人讨厌。能做到不让别人讨厌，已经是一件很不容易的事了。所以，所有的女孩，女子，女人，让我们一起加油吧。
P/s: It is so true. =)
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
A Special Day
Today is just one of the special days that will always be remembered.
Everything I did remember me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you.
They remind me of you.
Do you remember how the the story start on?
Do you remember the heart beats?
Do you remember those nights that we used to hold each other tight with the promises?
Do you remember?
And do I ever crossed your mind?
I couldn't help myself getting over from the flashback.
Wondering how are you doing now.
We were once stranger turning to friends and more than friends
and now we are turning back to stranger again.
It is just hard to forget such a person like you.
The memories will live in a corner of my mind
If you ever think about us
Just remember all the best things that we used to have.
No matter what I used to be in your place
No matter what were the reason for changing us
The moments we have was one of the best parts in my life
Hoping you are doing the best and the best now
Whatever is precious...
whatever bringing your heart joy..
that is what I wish for you always.
Ps: I believe someday you gonna stand infront of the stage and playing with your dreams.
0818
Everything I did remember me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you.
They remind me of you.
Do you remember how the the story start on?
Do you remember the heart beats?
Do you remember those nights that we used to hold each other tight with the promises?
Do you remember?
And do I ever crossed your mind?
I couldn't help myself getting over from the flashback.
Wondering how are you doing now.
We were once stranger turning to friends and more than friends
and now we are turning back to stranger again.
It is just hard to forget such a person like you.
The memories will live in a corner of my mind
If you ever think about us
Just remember all the best things that we used to have.
No matter what I used to be in your place
No matter what were the reason for changing us
The moments we have was one of the best parts in my life
Hoping you are doing the best and the best now
Whatever is precious...
whatever bringing your heart joy..
that is what I wish for you always.
Ps: I believe someday you gonna stand infront of the stage and playing with your dreams.
0818
Sunday, August 1, 2010
0801 @ 1.30 am
I thought busyness are one of the ways to get rid of it
Things just not goes as thought.
As I look back on all that happened, growing together..
There were times when we dreamed, we laughed and cried..
I never thought it meant this much until everything ended..
I realize how much I truly care and how much I actually miss it..
I know I shouldn't but I do really miss it..
I think it will always be there..just that..
it will not be activated so frequently as the time goes by.
P/s: I miss the voice and yeah I am missing him. Somehow, he will never know anymore.
Things just not goes as thought.
As I look back on all that happened, growing together..
There were times when we dreamed, we laughed and cried..
I never thought it meant this much until everything ended..
I realize how much I truly care and how much I actually miss it..
I know I shouldn't but I do really miss it..
I think it will always be there..just that..
it will not be activated so frequently as the time goes by.
P/s: I miss the voice and yeah I am missing him. Somehow, he will never know anymore.
Friday, July 30, 2010
My July
Another month gone.
Time really flies.
5 months left only for the year of 2010..
I would say July is one of the wonderful months that I ever had..
It ended with a lot of sweet and good memories..
Gaining a lot of "first time" experience in working..
It was my very first time working as crew and shouted in the crowd using the speaker..
My first time in-charge infront of the stage..
It is kinda hard to express here, but deeply I knew it was a good thing for me to experience..
Another exciting event I have went through---the dragon boat event
It gonna be one of the unforgettable memories too
Taking over Philippines team and the people are rock!!
They are nice and funny..
It was tiring but really fun..=)]
There are really lots of new things happened and I do discovered something in my life...
I am just fall in love with my life now.
I will keep moving on, no matter how.
Time really flies.
5 months left only for the year of 2010..
I would say July is one of the wonderful months that I ever had..
It ended with a lot of sweet and good memories..
Gaining a lot of "first time" experience in working..
It was my very first time working as crew and shouted in the crowd using the speaker..
My first time in-charge infront of the stage..
It is kinda hard to express here, but deeply I knew it was a good thing for me to experience..
Another exciting event I have went through---the dragon boat event
It gonna be one of the unforgettable memories too
Taking over Philippines team and the people are rock!!
They are nice and funny..
It was tiring but really fun..=)]
There are really lots of new things happened and I do discovered something in my life...
I am just fall in love with my life now.
I will keep moving on, no matter how.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
Disappoitment
It doesn't feel good when you tend to care or concern somebody but getting disappointment answers in return.
The feeling is awful,
especially it was said by the people that you care.
I don't know weather it was intentionally or accidentally
I just don't like being in that way.
Perhaps, shut up is the best solution?
The feeling is awful,
especially it was said by the people that you care.
I don't know weather it was intentionally or accidentally
I just don't like being in that way.
Perhaps, shut up is the best solution?
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Terrible June
I need a break, seriously.
Things just came over in the wrong timing.
All the due dates is getting nearer
Sitting infront of my lappy for most of the time
Facing those E-book through the screen
Struggling with the number of words in Microsoft
It is really suck.
And I can't describe how I feel now
Received a call from mummy this afternoon
Her call even shocked me
I have been told daddy is admitting to hospital
Something just went wrong with his heart
Yet the doctor is still finding the solution
I am really worrying
Hopefully the report tomorrow is not going to be a bad news.
The month of June started with phobias
Need a hug so badly.
Things just came over in the wrong timing.
All the due dates is getting nearer
Sitting infront of my lappy for most of the time
Facing those E-book through the screen
Struggling with the number of words in Microsoft
It is really suck.
And I can't describe how I feel now
Received a call from mummy this afternoon
Her call even shocked me
I have been told daddy is admitting to hospital
Something just went wrong with his heart
Yet the doctor is still finding the solution
I am really worrying
Hopefully the report tomorrow is not going to be a bad news.
The month of June started with phobias
Need a hug so badly.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
♥ Sunrise ♥
It is 5.15 am
I wish I could just be sitting besides the beach
or being in a east-top of mountain right now
Watching the bright sun rise up.
I wish I could just be sitting besides the beach
or being in a east-top of mountain right now
Watching the bright sun rise up.
Friday, May 21, 2010
Mood of Friday
It's been a while, I had been looking through past and living in the present.
Is trying to walk out from the circle now..
Sick of crying, tired of trying..
Gonna keep those memories somewhere..lock them perhaps.
P/s: I hope someday you gonna stand infront of the stage and playing with your dream. And with all my wishes watching you behind.
Is trying to walk out from the circle now..
Sick of crying, tired of trying..
Gonna keep those memories somewhere..lock them perhaps.
P/s: I hope someday you gonna stand infront of the stage and playing with your dream. And with all my wishes watching you behind.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Brain or heart?
I always tell my friends,
go with your heart whenever you have difficulty in making decision,
just go with your heart,
it will give you the best decision..
However, I realised..
this is not the first time anymore,
going with your heart while making decision hurts a lot..
somehow we just have to choose whether to make decision
with our heart or brain..
your brain always go against your heart..
telling you the total opposite things..
That's why we always struggle when we have to make a decision,
and we couldn't deny that the answer of the heart is always the one we wanted the most..
Sometimes, the situation just don't allow us do choose what we wanted..
Perhaps, those rational thinking is in our head !!
just sometimes we are escaping or ignore it..
I just have to be rational and just follow what my brain ask me to do..
Not the heart.
go with your heart whenever you have difficulty in making decision,
just go with your heart,
it will give you the best decision..
However, I realised..
this is not the first time anymore,
going with your heart while making decision hurts a lot..
somehow we just have to choose whether to make decision
with our heart or brain..
your brain always go against your heart..
telling you the total opposite things..
That's why we always struggle when we have to make a decision,
and we couldn't deny that the answer of the heart is always the one we wanted the most..
Sometimes, the situation just don't allow us do choose what we wanted..
Perhaps, those rational thinking is in our head !!
just sometimes we are escaping or ignore it..
I just have to be rational and just follow what my brain ask me to do..
Not the heart.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Dreams
It has been some time since the last post..
Busy busy busy is the only word crossed my mind..
Not a reason actually because I am really busy for bunch of assignments..
5 down another 5 more to go..=(
And honestly, I did quite a lot of outings too..
In other words, I am spending over recently..
It's the time to control myself from spending too much before fully bankrupt =)
Yet now I am finding..I am searching...
Something that I really need to work on..
Something that I really want to do in my life..
Something that I really obsessed with..
It is all about the future.
I am searching for my dreams.
I have this kind of strong feeling after a conversation with someone,
I just feel like I don't really know what life really meant to except the study,friendship,and relationship,..
Yeah I mean what do I really want to do in my future..
What is the directions that I really wished for in my life..
What kind of person that I really want to be to light my life up, to be proud of who am I and happy of course, the most important thing..
I shall start to think about it..
I am not sure whether they are being forgotten or I didn't think about them at all..
Now, I understand why there are some people rather to give up something else when they found their dreams..
It's so hard to find one..
Perhaps, there may be something to sacrifice in order to fight for their dreams..
It is mostly depends on how we judge or think, whether it is worth to do it or not to do it.
Now, I realize..
it is so important to discover the thing that I really really want to concentrate on..
Just because I still couldn't find one..it is not my fault of not forgetting the past.(someone told me this)
I wondering for some time..could this be true?
Maybe, she is right...
Maybe, he was right...
I am just too rely on the past til I forgot who am I.
P/s: Confused of what I am writing? I am confusing as well.
Busy busy busy is the only word crossed my mind..
Not a reason actually because I am really busy for bunch of assignments..
5 down another 5 more to go..=(
And honestly, I did quite a lot of outings too..
In other words, I am spending over recently..
It's the time to control myself from spending too much before fully bankrupt =)
Yet now I am finding..I am searching...
Something that I really need to work on..
Something that I really want to do in my life..
Something that I really obsessed with..
It is all about the future.
I am searching for my dreams.
I have this kind of strong feeling after a conversation with someone,
I just feel like I don't really know what life really meant to except the study,friendship,and relationship,..
Yeah I mean what do I really want to do in my future..
What is the directions that I really wished for in my life..
What kind of person that I really want to be to light my life up, to be proud of who am I and happy of course, the most important thing..
I shall start to think about it..
I am not sure whether they are being forgotten or I didn't think about them at all..
Now, I understand why there are some people rather to give up something else when they found their dreams..
It's so hard to find one..
Perhaps, there may be something to sacrifice in order to fight for their dreams..
It is mostly depends on how we judge or think, whether it is worth to do it or not to do it.
Now, I realize..
it is so important to discover the thing that I really really want to concentrate on..
Just because I still couldn't find one..it is not my fault of not forgetting the past.(someone told me this)
I wondering for some time..could this be true?
Maybe, she is right...
Maybe, he was right...
I am just too rely on the past til I forgot who am I.
P/s: Confused of what I am writing? I am confusing as well.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Need You Now
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
woah woaaah.
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now
Ooo, baby, I need you now
PS: Falling in love with this song. And I guess I am.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
I Will
I wish I could have higher EQ
To ignore things that I wished for
I wish to forget
Pretending that it never came into my life
I know I have made another mistakes
I know I shouldn't have acted that way
I should stay a little tougher
I don't know such little things will beat me down
Really hate myself when turning into this way
I know I should start ignore from now
I know I gonna delete everything
Keeping inside even hurts more
I know you are not longer you
I know you ain't care anymore
I know I should let go of everything
It is worthless to hold it, to keep it anymore
I know I will be.
It's just the matter of time
Allow me to cry, to cry loudly tonight
I know after tonight
I will still be missing
I will still be crying
But this time I gonna make things right.
Heart is dying
To ignore things that I wished for
I wish to forget
Pretending that it never came into my life
I know I have made another mistakes
I know I shouldn't have acted that way
I should stay a little tougher
I don't know such little things will beat me down
Really hate myself when turning into this way
I know I should start ignore from now
I know I gonna delete everything
Keeping inside even hurts more
I know you are not longer you
I know you ain't care anymore
I know I should let go of everything
It is worthless to hold it, to keep it anymore
I know I will be.
It's just the matter of time
Allow me to cry, to cry loudly tonight
I know after tonight
I will still be missing
I will still be crying
But this time I gonna make things right.
Heart is dying
Thursday, April 8, 2010
放手
这是一篇写给与自己的文章
其实
不想欺骗自己
其实
还会哭
其实
很想告诉你
真的还想着
真的还爱着
心还真的会隐隐作痛
其实
还在期待什么？
还在渴望什么？
其实
真的哭过就会好了吗？
以为可以真的无所谓
以为可以像想象中的坚强
或许
从一开始
根本就不应该存着什么期待
因 曾经的精彩
已经再不属于我们
真的应该学习怎样放手
真正的放手
真的
这一回
曾经拥有过的一切
都将挥挥手走出我生命了
往后再不相干 再不牵绕
再没有眼泪 再没有抱怨
也在不需要等待了
是时候
放手吧
其实
不想欺骗自己
其实
还会哭
其实
很想告诉你
真的还想着
真的还爱着
心还真的会隐隐作痛
其实
还在期待什么？
还在渴望什么？
其实
真的哭过就会好了吗？
以为可以真的无所谓
以为可以像想象中的坚强
或许
从一开始
根本就不应该存着什么期待
因 曾经的精彩
已经再不属于我们
真的应该学习怎样放手
真正的放手
真的
这一回
曾经拥有过的一切
都将挥挥手走出我生命了
往后再不相干 再不牵绕
再没有眼泪 再没有抱怨
也在不需要等待了
是时候
放手吧
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Hello April, Good bye March
Hello April =D
Finally!!
Get done with the both assignments which needed to pass up on the same due date..
praying for the grades...hopefully it won't be too bad..
Is actually having a temporary short breath now..
Tougher time is coming soon..
Now, I know what is the different between diploma and degree..
Diploma is a time where we can play HARDLY, while studying..
Things totally changed when come to degree..
Lots of stress..pressure is around..
Whatever...no more turning back...
I need to walk through and confront with all the obstacles...
March has been a very busy month for me..
Was studying, working, and hanging around in the same time..haha..
meeting with some new people...
yet I do love this life..
at least i do have my time filled up with things..
I need some changes in order to grow up...
I need to overcome with all the weaknesses on me(too much)..and trying to be the best of myself~~
All I need is just time...to prove on...something.
Finally!!
Get done with the both assignments which needed to pass up on the same due date..
praying for the grades...hopefully it won't be too bad..
Is actually having a temporary short breath now..
Tougher time is coming soon..
Now, I know what is the different between diploma and degree..
Diploma is a time where we can play HARDLY, while studying..
Things totally changed when come to degree..
Lots of stress..pressure is around..
Whatever...no more turning back...
I need to walk through and confront with all the obstacles...
March has been a very busy month for me..
Was studying, working, and hanging around in the same time..haha..
meeting with some new people...
yet I do love this life..
at least i do have my time filled up with things..
I need some changes in order to grow up...
I need to overcome with all the weaknesses on me(too much)..and trying to be the best of myself~~
All I need is just time...to prove on...something.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Come back please!
It is 3.30 am in the morning...
and I am still awaken for assignments..
Both of the due date fall at the same date, same time..
It is two assignments..
Gosshh...mr.assignment mr.assignment...u gonna kill me...
Where are you? Where are you?
My assignment mood~~come back to me please..
I need motivation strongly now !!
Seriously!!!
Kwan Shin Nee, Kwan Shin Nee..
You should start counting how many days left from the due date..
Please..please...keep those stupid thoughts away from your mind
and concentrate or else you gonna fail then!!
Yeah..I should have thrown all the things inside the recycle bin
shouldn't thinking it over and over again...
It is the only chances given
Look forward!!!!
Yea yea...Move on~!!!
PR 3001 & PR 2002
I gonna beat you down!!!
and I am still awaken for assignments..
Both of the due date fall at the same date, same time..
It is two assignments..
Gosshh...mr.assignment mr.assignment...u gonna kill me...
Where are you? Where are you?
My assignment mood~~come back to me please..
I need motivation strongly now !!
Seriously!!!
Kwan Shin Nee, Kwan Shin Nee..
You should start counting how many days left from the due date..
Please..please...keep those stupid thoughts away from your mind
and concentrate or else you gonna fail then!!
Yeah..I should have thrown all the things inside the recycle bin
shouldn't thinking it over and over again...
It is the only chances given
Look forward!!!!
Yea yea...Move on~!!!
PR 3001 & PR 2002
I gonna beat you down!!!
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Shall it?
Is this the way it should end?
Is this the way it should begin?
Is it is really over?
Is it too late to come back?
I wish it could begin again.
I wish to hold, just for one more time.
Shall it?
Is this the way it should begin?
Is it is really over?
Is it too late to come back?
I wish it could begin again.
I wish to hold, just for one more time.
Shall it?
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Maybe
Maybe they are right.
Maybe I did get my hopes up too high.
Maybe I was in over my head.
Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking it again and again.
I am just failed to get over it.
Maybe I did get my hopes up too high.
Maybe I was in over my head.
Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking it again and again.
I am just failed to get over it.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Say GO !!
I discovered every post of mine seem to be like...abit emo...haha..
Yeah..couldn't deny that blogging come only to my mind when I am moody
Haha..alright..gonna change the habit..updated my blog often!!
It's good for myself to review it in the future, isn't?
Well, I've just finish with the first week of my semester 2..
However there are lot of assignments pop-ing in..
3 subjects have to be taken for this sem and know what
One of the subject given FOUR assignments ..
While the other 2 subjects each given TWO assignments..
It means that I have to complete total of 8 assignments within four months..
It equal to 2 assignments per month leh...
Ohh...gosh...i don't know how I going to face it later..
Shall I went through it successfully?
Furthermore, another subject have to be taken starting April in morning class, where known as top up paper..
Not even dare to think how many assignments,tests gonna be given...
Supposed to take two subjects this sem..
But I am worry I couldn't get cope with it..
So due to safety..decided to have another subject taken after this sem.
I really gonna make myself more motivated..in order to have at least a satisfy result to go smoothly...
No more laziness ..!
I am the one chosen the road and I am the ONLY one to make everything goes right..
I have to be responsible for myself..to my family as well..
Hopefully things goes smoothly as I wished..
GOOD LUCK to me & all my friends...
Yeah..couldn't deny that blogging come only to my mind when I am moody
Haha..alright..gonna change the habit..updated my blog often!!
It's good for myself to review it in the future, isn't?
Well, I've just finish with the first week of my semester 2..
However there are lot of assignments pop-ing in..
3 subjects have to be taken for this sem and know what
One of the subject given FOUR assignments ..
While the other 2 subjects each given TWO assignments..
It means that I have to complete total of 8 assignments within four months..
It equal to 2 assignments per month leh...
Ohh...gosh...i don't know how I going to face it later..
Shall I went through it successfully?
Furthermore, another subject have to be taken starting April in morning class, where known as top up paper..
Not even dare to think how many assignments,tests gonna be given...
Supposed to take two subjects this sem..
But I am worry I couldn't get cope with it..
So due to safety..decided to have another subject taken after this sem.
I really gonna make myself more motivated..in order to have at least a satisfy result to go smoothly...
No more laziness ..!
I am the one chosen the road and I am the ONLY one to make everything goes right..
I have to be responsible for myself..to my family as well..
Hopefully things goes smoothly as I wished..
GOOD LUCK to me & all my friends...
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Drowning
The feeling is up and down
Can't express it through a way and to be frank... I really hate it!
I wish i could ignore as i can..
but something not just say ignore then things will disappear...
Be strong be tough is the only things I could say through words...
In fact, I am just not as tough as what I thought...
Can't express it through a way and to be frank... I really hate it!
I wish i could ignore as i can..
but something not just say ignore then things will disappear...
Be strong be tough is the only things I could say through words...
In fact, I am just not as tough as what I thought...
Monday, March 1, 2010
The Last Words
After a month after it, I know it is the time to stop struggling
And the time for my last tear to fall and smile again
I taken everything out tonight
Every single thing that belong to us
Went through all the letters, messages, emails, pictures and video once again
The memories came across my mind then
The days on how we being stranger to a friend and after that being more than a friend
The Birthdays, the 1st Christmas, the 1st trip, the 1st album, the valentines...
The days that we ever spent together..
There were so so so much sweet and beautiful memories created
I found something and felt something unique
Although the ending wasn’t like what we hoped for
Yeah it is hurt and pain enough inside but the time gonna make everything right
The precious memories will last forever...
For stepping into my life and being the special one
For melting the soul.. and showing what love actually is
For showing me a part of myself that I have never seen
We were young and dumb
But it still was fun and
Hope you feel the same...
It is gone but not forgotten
The good moment will be missed and keeping inside...
I wish you are doing the best in your journey
Forever and Always…..
It may not be heard but the wish will always be around...
P/s: Baby I will miss you. Please just don’t forget about us.
The tears is dropping again this time uncontrolled but with promise it’s gonna be the last time.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Thanks
Something touched me and ‘leads’ me to write on this post
This feeling come towards me in a sudden
I don’t know how to express it out
(Perhaps I am not good in expressing) =)
Just..
The fact is nobody knows what is going on tomorrow
Things might change
To the better or maybe worst in one day
So we must appreciate everything surrounding us right now
Yeah~
Just appreciate everything that came into my life
Because those memories makes life colorful
No matter it was the sweet or the bitter one~!!
Thanks mummy for the hugs
Thanks daddy for the understanding
And thanks to everyone who ever stepped into my life
The footprints gonna leave in my heart forever =)
THANK YOU~!!!
This post can't express what i feel right now...haha..
Just feel like writing something lah..
Alright!! Is time to stop thinking and date with mr.chow..have been a tiring day!!
Good night!
P/s: HAPPY BIRTHDAY to someone!!!
This feeling come towards me in a sudden
I don’t know how to express it out
(Perhaps I am not good in expressing) =)
Just..
The fact is nobody knows what is going on tomorrow
Things might change
To the better or maybe worst in one day
So we must appreciate everything surrounding us right now
Yeah~
Just appreciate everything that came into my life
Because those memories makes life colorful
No matter it was the sweet or the bitter one~!!
Thanks mummy for the hugs
Thanks daddy for the understanding
And thanks to everyone who ever stepped into my life
The footprints gonna leave in my heart forever =)
THANK YOU~!!!
This post can't express what i feel right now...haha..
Just feel like writing something lah..
Alright!! Is time to stop thinking and date with mr.chow..have been a tiring day!!
Good night!
P/s: HAPPY BIRTHDAY to someone!!!
Monday, February 8, 2010
One Day
I have forgotten how many times I been awaken in the nights
For unreasonable
Trying to block the memories to protect me from pain
But the walls aren’t strong enough
I am fighting my tears in vain
The feeling came creeping through and the hurts is still the same
I wish I could forget you, or make you see me now
How I wish you are still right here
Holding my hands and says “It’s ok…”
But I know it is just a dream
How long time should be taken to stop missing you
I wondering
But I know surely there will be the one day.
It is just the matter of time ^^
P/s: Thousand thanks to TEOH CHENG JIE(for the encouragements), CHOO XIAO HUI(for waking me up),SELINA YI(for listening to my horror "crying")
For unreasonable
Trying to block the memories to protect me from pain
But the walls aren’t strong enough
I am fighting my tears in vain
The feeling came creeping through and the hurts is still the same
I wish I could forget you, or make you see me now
How I wish you are still right here
Holding my hands and says “It’s ok…”
But I know it is just a dream
How long time should be taken to stop missing you
I wondering
But I know surely there will be the one day.
It is just the matter of time ^^
P/s: Thousand thanks to TEOH CHENG JIE(for the encouragements), CHOO XIAO HUI(for waking me up),SELINA YI(for listening to my horror "crying")
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